another step towards insafing
i spent a good part of the weekend with awesome company.
and then the other part was spent catching up on sleep at home.
and it’s during this other part, when i feel, incomplete.
i just don’t get what’s missing.
i’ve a loving family, awesome friends, a relationship with God. what else do i need?
shouldn’t this be enough?
there are times when i question people’s sincerity.
call me insecure, but i really wonder, if they sincerely care for me for who i am?
or do they feel i’m someone they have to take care of, because of who i am related to?
as in, because my brother’s a good friend of theirs, they feel its their duty to look out for me?
sometimes i just wish that my friends are mine, and his friends are his.
a friend keeps reminding me, never put yourself down.
but over the weekend, i can’t help but feel like i’m not good enough.
i can be so much more, but i just am not.
i’m trying so hard to avoid comparing myself to my siblings, but i can’t.
i wish i could just reformat my whole life.
and re-install the good bits.
and erase the bad.
and add in better stuff.
