between reality and dreams ..

i started this as an email to friends, but i figured i should rant in my own blog, so they have a choice whether to read or not.

we’ve got the nice weather now in melbourne ..

other than the nice weather, everything else seems to just not go right.

my sister and her husband left for malaysia for 3 weeks on monday night.
i’ve already stayed alone for 6 weeks, u’d think i’d be all right with just another 3 more.
i guess the feeling of every one of my family back home together and me alone here was just too overwhelming.
i’m fine now though. got over it.
wanted to go home during my 2 weeks break to join them, but money issues. and also last minute got replacement class then cuz lecturer was sick on monday. so, i might be back end of december instead.

last night i was doing my assignment (last minute again, what else is new)
flash mx hung on me.
before i saved my changes.
@%##!@
good thing the changes were easy to re-do.

i was running late for class today. (what else is new)
i turned on my outside light (because by the time i get back, it’d be dark).
the light bulb blew.
that’s like 4 light bulbs in a span of 2-3weeks that have blown.
and the worst thing is, they always blow 1-2 days after my brother in law leaves.
(and i can’t change them because i’m too short, even with a ladder)

so, i go to my car, put the key in the ignition, and the engine won’t start.
battery died.
i go to the petrol station, and they don’t sell battery water.
i go to the supermarket, and they don’t either. i couldn’t even find distilled water.
i called a nearby mechanic, and they don’t do house calls. they want me to get a tow truck and tow the car there.
i called another one that comes to the house, and they’re only free tomorrow morning. at 8am.

oh, have i mentioned, total in my bank account is less than $10?
i have $3000 in my sister’s account, but that’s for my fees. not even enough to cover my fees.
and now, incur extra expenses to pay for car repairs.

how about the rising petrol costs?
it’s 30 cents per litre more than i paid during the start of last semester.
that’s about $10 more on petrol, per week.

enough ranting.

i’m fine.
i just need to let go.

i know my problems are so trivial.
victims of hurricane katrina have it much worse than me.
i should count my blessings. like the fact i actually am in melbourne. and i have a car. and even if it doesn’t get repaired in time for me to hand in my assignment tmr, i have the option of taking a train, or driving alvin’s car (which is a worst come to worst option).

i need to stay positive.