it’s in the genes ..
the doctors are back for a few days, and then it’s off to malaysia for them. sigh
i tagged along with them for their CG and then for laser quest after that.
you know how sometimes you want to be different from someone, and yet at the end of the day, you find that you’re so similiar? no?
well anyway, i grew up wanting to be different from my siblings. i couldn’t tahan when anyone said i was like them. i tried so hard to be different.
but today, while listening to my sister pray, i realised that there are so many things i do that are just the way she does it. and there’s no running away from it. i just have to face it that we are the same in some ways. but no, i still don’t think we look alike. (of all things not to be alike, why do i have to be the lazy one? and the stupid one? sigh)
after laser quest, we got our game stats.
and for some reason, i started comparing my sister’s and mine.
and that’s what i’ve always been doing growing up. comparing myself to her, and not measuring up.
and now, i find myself being pressured to get a ‘partner’ that will be as good as hers. or better! …
oh, the unnecessary pressure i put on myself!
you know what scares me?
i am afraid that i do that to my younger sister unintentionally.
raising (or setting) the bar each time, that it gets almost impossible to reach it.
(of course, most of the time, i knock the bar over instead, and then put it lower.. )
the four of us. so different, yet so alike as well.
