some things are better left unsaid
i feel i can’t be totally honest in my blog anymore.
where once i would blab every single thing in it, now i struggle to even say anything.
this blog has become purposeless. even if i read it again in the future, it wouldn’t have made a difference because most of the entries have become so meaningless, and totally no substance.
will i stop blogging completely? i doubt it. it’s been part of my lifestyle since Aug 2002. which makes it 3 years already.
i wonder if it’s pride that’s keeping me from pouring out my heart.
or whether, some things are better left unsaid.
i think i’m becoming more self-dependant in an unhealthy way. because as a Christian, i should be depending on Him. and i should not rely on my strength, but have faith that He’ll help me thru anything.
but there’s where i am a hypocrite.
i say i believe, but i live otherwise.
and that is why, i think i get tired so easily.
because i rely on myself.
i have all the cliches, the Christian textbook answers.
i talk the talk, but not walk the talk.
hypocrite.
pride comes before a fall.
will i fall flat on my face?
or will i manage to stand firm instead of falling?
only time will tell.
just when i say i can’t be totally honest, i start pouring out a section of what i’ve been struggling with. looks like this blog does serve its purpose after all
Oh, blog something about your life/coursework and stuff. Or somethings about your most recent date. It would be fun to know.
Comment by Seige — September 1 , 2005 @ 1:07 am
Isn’t there a feature where u can select whether to make a particular post public or not? I’m not sure, I think I’ve seen something like that before, dunno lah. Anyway, when you blog, you gotta be prepared for all these, because your site is up online and anybody could access it. In a way, by merely posting up a post, you are already telling to the world at large.
I’ve always believed in blogging comfortably. No doubt this online space can belong to you (the blogger), but you’ve to remember that anyone could have access to ur site. Be a lil more imaginative: “What if X and X read this?”
Comment by narrowband — September 3 , 2005 @ 1:08 pm